I didn't read through all of the comments but I sped read thru alot and wholly shit
I can totally 100 relate to
I have a similar story. am roughly the same age with few more on top. I couldn't help but jump right in with a comment. I have been a musician since childhood , playing clarinet, sax, guitar.. formally trained in all the above. However, I had a change of endeavor to which instrument I really wanted to play.. especially after seeing it performed , I totally switched to playing tabla the north Indian percussion. Lol.
Have been taught by the best in the world and live in Nepal part time.
I had a dream to perform masterfully in front of crowds in a traditional setting. But work and obligations ALWAYS took the forefront. Not to mention I could never sit and play tabla for 12 hrs. I persisted at it for 20 years. Yet I never became proficient while painting houses. I then had a horrible health crisis, my spine began to become compromised. I had to stop working after 10 years of pain and meds. Thankfully my wife who is from Nepal had a good job here in the USA. I finally applied for disability got denied, hired an attorney with hopes that if i could get SSD, I would have a chance at music.. however not playing table professionally but by mixing it with EDM. I did get my first DAW in 2002. Cubase.. I could not for the life of me figure it out no youtube or help back then.. so I kept painting houses till my spine failed. I actually started growing medical cannabis during the last tenure of my painting career, with the notion I would build a studio and buy everything I needed. Well it sorta worked until legislation changed the requirements of Dispensaries for their suppliers. So I was out of a job again. I decided to take the 25,000$ that I made growing weed put that in a savings and take classes and endeavor EDM. This whole time I hadn't touched cubase. Once my studio was built I took classes at Berklee for Reason, Midi, and composition. After finding out about Live, I freakn switched, it was very difficult. I took workshops, videos, tutorials , the works on how to make EDM with Live. All this time wondering if I would get SSD. I just found out a month ago I got it!!
Which brings me to this point in time. I have been learning Live, full time now for about a year. I just cannot bring myself to give up after all I have put into it. I have mentors, and I am friends with some amazing artists. The new music coming out lately from them has just given me inspiration to not give up, even if I never make music that is close to what they come up with ....
Age IS relative though, look at DJ CHEB I SABBAH, anyone know his age?????? 65!! he still makes some of the best EDM in the world and is famous. But granted he has been at it for a very long time... Anyway I just wanted to throw my story in the kettle , and let you know that your not alone in this type of endeavor. We all gotta dream, even if we wake up one day and say wtf was I thinking? I just never wanted to wake up when i was old and say WHY THE FUCK didn't I pursue music more!? And regret THAT even more than putting ALL of my time and all of my $$ into it... I now know Live pretty damn well.
Sorry for the length peeps.