I just sold you that VVV plugin and noticed this topic, so I felt compelled to reply. I'm hoping that transferring that plugin means that you're in a more positive state of mind now (although please don't get hung up on plugin-GAS now ).I've dabbled with live for almost a decade now and feel like i've finally realized i have no musical talent whatsoever.
I want to sell all my stuff and move on but i just feel bad.
How can i just give it up?
have you ever felt like this?
A lot of very nice thoughts have been shared here already. I could quote a lot of posts and write "this" below them.
I disagree with the concept of "talent" People who make cool music are no other than you and me. They are simply people who've done this thing so often that they have found their ways, and all of the sudden people think "they are soo talented" while I think in most cases, people should say "they have worked long and hard to be able to express themselves this way".i have no musical talent whatsoever.
YES!have you ever felt like this?
But I got back to it every single time.
I think this struggle is part of what it means to be an artist.
Check out "The Gap": https://vimeo.com/85040589
I quit for a few months two years back. Life got in the way. I got in the way.How can i just give it up?
Then I realised life was incredibly empty and shallow without that "higher goal" of finding an elegant way of communicating with others.
And I got back on the bandwagon.
There is no shame in just letting things go for a while, re-realising what it means to you.
I'm not affiliated with him in any way, but look up "Mike Monday" on YouTube. His free material really helped me.
I never ever thought I would pay to do the full course, as I'm sceptical towards "coach-type" offers.
But I did, and so far it's been really helpful.
I make music every single day (well, almost, but it's very close to every day).
I finished my 17th track last week when I didn't finish anything for years on end prior to that.
Are my tracks where I want them to be now?
No, not at all. But on the whole I'm seeing progress, and that's a damn good feeling.
Have I stopped despairing altogether?
No, but my moments of despair are faaaar less. I'm waaaay more positive minded overall (affects my whole life, not just music) and much more confident now that I'm seeing real progress.
No-one ever tells you that finding your workflow, developing a positive mindstate, repeating good habits, being present and balanced etcetera are much, MUCH more important than strolling forums and obsessing about the latest or oldest gear.
I hope you get back on it man. Make some music. Let is suck. Then make some more, and notice how you're now one step further than you were yesterday. And notice how you do not suck 100% but you lack certain specific skills, and notice that your are capable of improving your current ability to express yourself by repeating this process over and over and over and over and over again. And you'll learn to enjoy it again.
Do it! Don't be that 80 year old Octavio "I wish I never gave up on music when things got tough" Pineda.
Be that guy who went ahead with it, even thought it hurt.
That develops guts and character.