Hope there is a well sorted bar in heavenmarky wrote:drinking is my reward for when I'm done!
I meant done writing a track, not done breathing !!conny wrote: Hope there is a well sorted bar in heaven
Conny, I understand. Best of luck with it all! Once you get used to writing sober, you'll wonder how you ever did it whilst drinking I'm sure.conny wrote: Well, reward is fine. But for some, like me, you may end up "rewarding" yourself for having made that phone call etc - a downward staircase of rewards.
// C
see this is how it was getting more and more for me until I was just sitting in front of the computer trying to keep my eyes open - every night when I had lots of free time not so much going to bed as collapsing into it - strong espresso stopped workingmarky wrote:I love a good bevvy (I'm Scottish after all!) but I really can't make music when I'm drinking. I end up getting really excited about a riff and have another driknk... and lay stuff down and drink some more, stick some beats down (drink some more).. start planning out the arrangement (and drink another)... and I head to bed thinking I've just had a really productive night sticking down some ace new track...
... then check it again in the morning and it's crap!
I always write and work sober.. drinking is my reward for when I'm done!
Word, I totally agre...zfigz wrote:
I need to seriously stop puffin' up, but I find it helps so much. Not just with writing music, but even studying for my classes. Then again, maybe I'm ADHD and doja is just my adderall.
yeah, that's the thing - I have to take my asthma puffer every day, get wheezy, short of breath going up stairs - it's something I've known for a while I really shouldnt be doing - but same as you, I just love listening to and making music stoned - it's like entering some parallel universezfigz wrote:....
I need to seriously stop puffin' up, but I find it helps so much. Not just with writing music, but even studying for my classes. Then again, maybe I'm ADHD and doja is just my adderall.
Forge, yeah I hear you. I got into the same kind of loop for a while myself, but I wasn't writing any music at that point .. it was a whole 4 years I did nothin musically and it pains me to think of what I could have achieved if I hadn't stopped at that period.forge wrote:see this is how it was getting more and more for me until I was just sitting in front of the computer trying to keep my eyes open - every night when I had lots of free time not so much going to bed as collapsing into it - strong espresso stopped workingmarky wrote:I love a good bevvy (I'm Scottish after all!) but I really can't make music when I'm drinking. I end up getting really excited about a riff and have another driknk... and lay stuff down and drink some more, stick some beats down (drink some more).. start planning out the arrangement (and drink another)... and I head to bed thinking I've just had a really productive night sticking down some ace new track...
... then check it again in the morning and it's crap!
I always write and work sober.. drinking is my reward for when I'm done!
thinking every single night this is so fucking ridiculous, but coming back next night, sitting down, thinking "where do I start" and then just having a bong then starting to get ideas but getting a little side tracked by the big green paranoid weed fairy, so I go and open a beer and get on a really nice buzz for maybe up to 3 pints - but by the third the drowsyness starts to sttle in so I go and get a strong coffee which sets the heartbeat pumping, but makes the anxious paranoid feeling worse so I go and get another beer
so before long the whole night is centered around the next substance
and it started so well - that's the vicious cycle of it that the 1st couple actually did seem to work - got me relaxed and excited by the music, but it just didnt last long and had an acumulative effect so I could never get back to that first buzz
just writing this out makes me feel so stupid - it reminds me how important writing your thoughts out is - I used to keep a journal as a teenager and I just might have to start again - it can help you organise your thoughts really well
RE: the inspiration thing
Einstein:" genius is 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration"
Picasso: "inspiration exists but it has to find you working"
Ofcourse you can, you are still you I hope and intelligence and ability can never be in the drug! It may trigger things that are inside you. Now we have to learn how to do it "on our own".forge wrote: ah well maybe after so many years I'll be able to do it sober
Now thas wha I'm talkin about. Hold onto that appreciation and realize how important that is.conny wrote:forge wrote:
Yesterday night I had some hours with tea and trying to learn how to program Crystal. It was OK, even did some drone things that might become a tune. And, as a difference, the work done feels interesting even today!
// C
me too conny - yesterday was a bit tough going, seriously thinking "just one cant hurt" - but I remembered that in the past on those occasions what happens is as soon as you have that "just one" then it breaks your momentum and you're no longer on this personal challeng, so you very quickly go back to how you were.conny wrote:Ofcourse you can, you are still you I hope and intelligence and ability can never be in the drug! It may trigger things that are inside you. Now we have to learn how to do it "on our own".forge wrote: ah well maybe after so many years I'll be able to do it sober
Says dr C.
Had some bad cravings in the afternoon today, obcessed by thoughts and images and memories of sweet beer... very near to give in "for just this day". Went swimming, and it cooled me down enough.
Yesterday night I had some hours with tea and trying to learn how to program Crystal. It was OK, even did some drone things that might become a tune. And, as a difference, the work done feels interesting even today!
// C