gjm & hb - We're on the same page, really. My choice of words could have many different interpretations.
What I'm trying to get at, is that I don't rule anything out, I keep an open mind and I learn and research as much as I can. I don't have time to go investigate the mayan calendar and interview the elders, or physically see the pictures/drawings of the tablet, etc. I also don't have the time or resources to double check all the work of the researchers and scientists who have worked on the theory of evolution. I rely on others to convey the information. I have read enough to believe, trust it, or "have faith" in the mayan calendar. If it really is a hoax, I hope someone does the research and shows it and I will read their work and discuss it. We'll know in 2012 what was supposed to happen anyways, it's just a short time away. I think the actual date of December 21st 2012 or October 28th, 2011 won't mean much. Consciousness will be evolving towards them and life will continue after them. I think those who don't learn to trust their intuition will have a hard time adapting to life in those times, look at all the shortages and crises that are looming on the horizon (food, money, energy, land, water). I believe life as we know it will change. This is why I posted The End Of Suburbia. I think what once was suburbia will have a new name, a new meaning. It could very well be slums until we get the right technology into place to make them useful again. Without cheap oil and centralized distribution, they won't function properly.
Maybe I won't use the word faith anymore, just like I don't like to use the word God to represent spiritual energy - they invoke bad feelings to me.
My point is that we are learning new things all the time and what we once believed as fact or truth has since been disproven. I would rather believe evolution than creationist, but there are still many unanswered questions in evolution for me to absolutely believe it as fact, even though it seems extremely more possible and probable than creationist theory and the stories of the bible. I like how the mayan calendar mixes science and spirituality, so currently I am resonanting with this.
The fact is that we don't know why we're here, how we came here or where we're going. Maybe something new will come along to answer more questions in the future, we will need to have an open mind and keep asking those questions, keep exploring.
I think maybe part of the reason why we're here is to figure that out. My personal belief is that I must leave this earth in better shape than I found it, that is my purpose. So currently I am growing spiritually to become more peaceful, and moving my lifestyle to live sustainability. I have found resonance in the concept of enlightenment, free of grasping (no anxiety / control), not taking part in things that bring suffering to myself or anyone else (I have given up dance music and the late night schedule). I am writing melodic ambient music, with no drums (the sharp attacks now don't feel good when I'm fully living in the present).
And I'm free of materialistic desires ( I don't have to have the latest and greatest shiny thing, just what works and gets the job done. I don't have to buy things to be cool. ) I like to have my computer and a keyboard and some speakers, but if something happened and I lost them, I have now come to terms that I would be ok. I'd find something else to be creative with. I don't save up and slave away to buy something, being unhappy until I buy it. I am learning to live within my means, go with the flow and know that everything will work out as long as I am trusting my intuition.
Trusting our intuition can't be proven, you have to trust it through trial and error. Do you guys know what I mean? Sometimes I have an urge, maybe call it an instinct, to do something. If I don't act on it, I will regret it. Sometimes it is small, sometimes big. When I am in tune with this, life seems to just flow.. like a dream. It's really amazing. I have had so much anxiety and stress years before when I tried to force things to happen and resisted change.
The swedish guy dr. calleman who was the partner in the mayan calendar project with ian has a book out about it. In it he says at 2012 we will have a merging of east and west thought. the east do not think the way we do about time and order, so he thinks it will be an end to 'time' as we know it. Also, we will have a unitary consciousness - knowing that we are all one - similar to what you guys are talking about that we're all connected and our minds create our reality, I like this idea, law of attraction, quantum physics, etc.
Many of the problems we have in the world are due to fear and anxiety. This leads to control and friction between people. This leads to violence and wars. If we could have a unitary consciousness and realize we're all in it together, and stop thinking in terms of US vs Them, we'd be moving in a better direction with less violence and suffering.
I am not ready to think that it's time to be self-less and give everything to others who have less. I do believe in survival of the fittest - those who don't prepare and grow deserve their suffering - but if someone harmed them, then I think its ok to help them. I am not sure on how to handle the starving people around the world though, those who are 'less fortunate', maybe if I was super rich, I'd help them out, but I know that is a massive problem with no easy solution. Some say we're over populated, maybe it's natures way to clean things up and we have to let it go?
There are many answered questions and I like thinking about them, It gives me an extra dimension in life, and hope for a better future, and reason to work towards one.
Heavensdaw - WOW. What an amazing story. I have heard about the reptilians and it was a bit much for me to believe. I hadn't heard a story from someone personally before though... Goes to show, anything is possible and something is up with those mayans... Maybe the reptilians were the ones who gave them the information about the calendar five thousand years ago
I really enjoyed my time there. But there came a day that I just had to move on... 
